My beloved, obedient as you have always been,
not only when I am present but all the more now when I am absent,
work out your salvation with fear and trembling.
During this season of "death and judgment, heaven and hell," we hear Saint Paul's encouraging and practical assessment of the challenge before us. He knows from his own history of innumerable trials that we must "work out (our) salvation with fear and trembling."
The project before us is not a new interest, fad, or hobby. If anyone's coming to the Church is only an impulse of fascination or momentary curiosity, they should simply go away. We're very serious about our salvation and the Lord's mission. His agonizing death on a cross isn't something that happened a long time ago in a faraway galaxy. Our Baptism and Eucharist has made this story immediate, personal, and demanding.
Many of us suffered greatly before we put away the old self of our former way of life, corrupted through deceitful desires,. We saw the relief and joy of others who believed in the Lord, and we hoped we might be given the same opportunity. Nor did our putting on the new self, created in God’s way in righteousness and holiness of truth. (see Ephesians 4:22-24) come immediately or without a struggle.
Our salvation was and remains a project worked out with fear and trembling in the presence of Almighty God and his Crucified Son, and in the company of the Sorrowful Mother and numberless martyrs. We know the old, discarded attitudes trail us like shadows, like Frodo's Sméagol. If the tempter left Jesus in the wilderness, Saint Luke tells us, it was only for a time; he would return. We are far beyond surprise when we discover the old "grumbling and questioning" occupying the place that should be occupied by the peace of Christ. These habits are far too familiar to surprise anyone.
We hear and take seriously the Lord's demand that we turn away from "father and mother, wife and children, brothers and sisters, and even [our] own life." As important as these relationships are, we know, respect, and love them within and through the knowledge of Jesus Christ. Some of us had to sever those familial ties as we put on the new self, and were permitted to return to them only years later, with the assurance that we could not belong to them anymore. In many cases, we found that nothing had changed in that Godforsaken world.
The Lord's parables of building a tower and defending a kingdom assure us that there will be cost overruns. If we cannot know what they are, we will pay them when the time comes. Following the Lord to Calvary will cost more than we expect, and demand more sacrifice than we were prepared to make. And we'll do it; we cannot turn back.