Have mercy on me, O God,
in your goodness;
in the greatness of your compassion wipe out my offense.
Thoroughly wash me from my guilt
and of my sin cleanse me.
in the greatness of your compassion wipe out my offense.
Thoroughly wash me from my guilt
and of my sin cleanse me.
While we must
contemplate the goodness of God – fixing our eyes on Jesus -- we cannot do so
without attention to our sins. They are too real, too demanding and persistent
to be ignored. Like the blood of Abel, they cry to heaven for attention.
The memory of sin
invites us to consider and explore the fearful depths of our own nature. In Leo
Tolstoy’s Anna Karenina we meet a woman who simply refuses to look inward. She cannot acknowledge her own sins or foolishness.
Whatever is wrong or sinful or worthy of blame belongs to someone else. She looks
in the mirror and sees only what everyone else sees, an astonishingly beautiful
woman. The last woman who might be able to speak to her, a sister in law, recognizes
a fluttering in her eyes which indicates her refusal to engage. Anna was eager
to show Dolly her splendid lifestyle but firmly closed any glimpse of her soul.
Considered one of the greatest
novels of all time, I found it painful reading. As much as I might want to
sympathize with a drop-dead gorgeous woman, I could find nothing attractive. Charming
and seductive, she is toxic. In the end her memory is erased by the onset of
World War I as surely as a sandcastle disintegrates under the tide.
Lent challenges us to
look inward and face the fearful defensiveness that evades self-examination and
self-awareness. But the fear of looking inward is always worse than the actual event, because the Lord takes us by the hand as we go. Yes, I have sinned and I wish I had not. But God's grace embraces the whole of my life and these events, as critical as they have been to me, are not the whole story. There is mercy and there is the promise that my life, in the end, will be a gospel story.
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I love to write. This blog helps me to meditate on the Word of God, and I hope to make some contribution to our contemplations of God's Mighty Works.
Ordinarily, I write these reflections two or three weeks in advance of their publication. I do not intend to comment on current events.
I understand many people prefer gender-neutral references to "God." I don't disagree with them but find that language impersonal, unappealing and tasteless. When I refer to "God" I think of the One whom Jesus called "Abba" and "Father", and I would not attempt to improve on Jesus' language.
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